Today when I woke up I told myself I was going to take an hour or so to catch up on my "Jesus Calling" book by Sarah Young. Planning this wedding, doing all the little details left me 7 days behind in my daily book. When I read this morning I felt the Holy Spirit talking to me. I was going to write a Facebook post, but instead thought a blog entry would be more sufficient.
I found so many pages just speaking directly to me. I want to share some of them with you, and hopefully you'll gain some clarity on your own life. Whatever it is we get busy with, remember, God is in control and nothing we do with deviate the path he has chosen for us.
"Do not miss the Joy of My Presence by carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders." Whoa, this one hit me hard......I do this ALL THE TIME. I always carry my own weight, as well as many other people's shoulder weight. That is how I roll. I am a worrier. When I do this, I lose sight of the "Joy of His Presence" that comes from the Lord. I'm too busy trying to fix things out of my control, to sit and acknowledge all the blessings around me.
In Proverbs 31:35, it says, "She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come."
"I am the Firm Foundation on which you can dance and sing and celebrate My Presence. This is My high and holy calling for you; receive it as a precious gift. Glorifying and enjoying Me is a higher priority than maintaining a tidy, structured life. Give up your striving to keep everything under control~an impossible task and a waste of precious energy." This blows my mindset of keeping everything perfect.....I'm guilty. I wanna spend more time singing and dancing than worrying about my dishes being done, or the dust bunny forming under the table.
And finally today's reading (yes, I got caught up), "Wait patiently with Me while I bless you. Don't rush into My Presence with time-consciousness gnawing at your mind. I dwell in timelessness: I am, I was, I will always be. For you, time is a protection; you're a frail creature who can handle only twenty-four-hour segments of life. Time can also be a tyrant, ticking away relentlessly in your mind. Learn to master time, or it will be your master."
So what am I getting to? We have 10 days until the wedding...life is crazy here. I have respect for anyone who has planned a big wedding. Mac and I eloped, Megan and Derek eloped. Are we smarter? I don't know. Jess wanted a big wedding since she was a little girl, and she's gonna be a princess. Weddings are hard, and all the little details make your head spin. I'm going to try to remember what I read today, and slow down and smell the roses.
Basically I'm a stay at home farm wife. All my kids are grown and out of the house living their own lives. I'm real. I write. I bake. I cook. I cry. I laugh. I try to put up with everyday life, while trying to be a good farm wife, mom, and grandma. I have a sense of humor many don't quite understand. Trust me, if you get me, you'll be a forever friend.
